Home.....?

I moved from Ireland to Portugal when I was 10 years old against my will. I just turned 14 (02 April =] =]) recently. So it's been about 3 and a half years now. I still long to move back and despise it here in Portugal. I miss Ireland like crazy (not so much Ireland, but the town I grew up in). I dislike everything about Portugal; from the roads, to the buildings, to the people, to the whether, to school, etc.

Whenever I think about the fact that I may not get to move back for many many years, I begin to have a sort of panic attack.

Therefore, I'm always just pretending and imagining that I'm going to move back to Ireland before I turn 15. It's really weird, I imagine the friends I'll have, and school, and what I'll do and where I'll go and basically just imagine another life in Ireland, because I'm so miserable here. I know it's not healthy, and it sounds weird, but really, I'm not crazy xD

When will I get over this home-sickness?

Its unfortunate that you were pulled away from the place you love, I remember the situation when I was about to enter middle school, I lived too far away to go to the school that my friends were going to so I had to go to a different school. I was very shy and was a loner for quite some time. I was always very social during elementary school but this newfound isolation took its toll on me and I soon became an isolationist. Eventually I made a friend and I'm glad I did because I made some good friends in middle school. But even to this day I find that my shyness is not completely gone and it has unfortunately hindered me some but its manageable. As time went on I soon became distant from my elementary school friends. I do sometimes see my old best friend around but I dont think he recognizes me anymore =P Its not weird for you to be homesick for so long, its just a sad unfortunate fact of life that we are sometimes pulled away from the things we love. But if that whole ordeal taught me anything it was that its up to our own individual self to try to find some form of happiness in our surroundings. I do hope that one day you get to go back to Ireland, I've always wanted to visit it =) If I had to give some sort of advice it would be to try and make a friend, I know how difficult that can be but it could help things go by easier. I cant offer you any solutions but if you would ever like to talk please dont be afraid to approach me. Take care=)

its not weird, you miss what you had and want it back. However, have you really given Portugal a chance? If you've had this mindset since you moved then you really haven't seen Portugal clearly and are just set on not liking it. Give it a chance and loosen up, it might be a fun place.